The end of the year that is - not the end of the world...well unless you believe in all that 2012 end of the world Mayan crap. Which I don't, personally.
What a year! To think it will end in just a couple of short weeks cements the feeling that this year has past extraordinarily quickly even though at times it felt like time stood still. It only feels like yesterday that my son turned 1 year old, however other events that took place feel like they were a lifetime ago.
March saw my son's 1st birthday party. April saw one of my best friend's and her daughter involved in a near fatal car accident. May saw my daughter's 9th birthday. July saw the first and last (touch wood) Fibromyalgia flare of the year which sucked but hey, it was 1 flare which is a big improvement on last year! August saw all synthetic Cannabis products banned in Australia - along with the downfall of 'Kronic'. September saw my husband being promoted at work (finally) and October saw my little boy start Daycare. The 17th day of October was the beginning of the most frightening 6 weeks I've ever lived through - but the 29th day of November proved to be the best day of the year by far. I found out I did not have cancer after myself, my doctors and my family were almost convinced I probably did. I don't think I've ever slept as well as I did that night.
That brings us to now - the 13th day of December. It's a sunny, Summer morning. Owen is enjoying himself at Daycare, Ant would just be arriving at work and I'm sitting here in the air conditioning, tunes blasting, sipping coffee and reflecting on how good life actually is. I wonder how I would feel right now if things were different - if things didn't turn out the way they did, if events listed above had different consequences and different endings. Some people would say not to think about that, but bollocks to them I say :) If we didn't think about those sort of things, frankly we'd never really be able to appreciate what we have.
I have my health. I have the most amazing, brave, incredibly strong friends who have overcome and do overcome so much. I have my family & husband who kept my spirits up when I needed them to. I have a wonderful little girl who'll be starting the 5th grade next year and a wonderful little boy who is thriving. I've achieved every goal I set out to this year, even when faced with some of the scariest stuff I've ever lived through.
This year has taught me to live in the moment, to stop being so organised, to try new things, to face fears and to let go a little. I've learnt that I can not control everything and I can now say that I'm honestly OK with that. Almost losing one of my closest friends and being faced with the possibility of not seeing my kids grow up has taught me to not sweat the small stuff.
My world came close to ending a couple of times this year and I lived through it... so bring it on, 2012!
Merry Christmas, everyone xo.
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